Call me irresponsible

This is a song of Michael Buble,,
I think it’s my soundtrack these couple months,,
*sigh*

Call Me Irresponsible
By Michael Bublé
From the album: Call Me Irresponsible [Tour Edition]

Call me irresponsible
Call me unreliable
Throw in undependable, too

Do my foolish alibis bore you?
Well, I’m not too clever, I
I just adore you

So, call me unpredictable
Tell me I’m impractical
Rainbows, I’m inclined to pursue

Call me irresponsible
Yes, I’m unreliable
But it’s undeniably true
That I’m irresponsibly mad for you

Do my foolish alibis bore you?
Girl, I’m not too clever, I
I just adore you

Call me unpredictable
Tell me that I’m so impractical
Rainbows, I’m inclined to pursue

Go ahead, call me irresponsible
Yes, I’m unreliable
But it’s undeniably true
I’m irresponsibly mad for you

You know it’s true
Oh, baby, it’s true

Written by CAHN/VAN HEUSEN
Lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC

Tangan terpasung

Aku tau aku tak bisa memiliki segalanya,,
Aku hAnya dtakdirkan memiliki yang ku butuhkan,,

Aku butuh dirimu,,
Dan aku cemburu,,
Jika ia juga mengambilmu,,

Bilang aku egois,,
Bilang aku manja,,
Bilang aku menyebalkan,,
Tapi aku butuh kamu,,
Karena cuma kamu yang slalu tinggal untukku,,

…atau
Bilang saja,,
Aku memang benci dia!!

…JIH, 10 Juli 2009…
Camelia, 2202A
13.35

Sent from my iPhone

wOndering in d midDle of d night *kinda poem again

,,silence,,
,,broken by d cLink,,
,,staring at my surrounding,,
,,only to find nothing,,

,,siLence,,
,,broken by d memory,,
,,remembering d moment when i cRy,,
,,d day my tears goin dry,,

,,silence,,
,,broken by d flash of ur smile,,
,,went through a mile,,
,,tore my heart into pieces just like missile,,

,,silence,,
,,in this midnight,,

,,me,,
,,in this midnight,,

,,remembering u,,
,,ur gorgeous love,,
,,that i can never beat u,,

.midnight.
.me.
.remembering.
.u and ur love.

.m.e.
.a.l.o.n.e.
.missing u.

my LuvLy mOther..

*dedicated for mY LuvLy chie,,
we’ve been through many things together,,
experienced almost many same things,,

i’m just too understand ur feeling,,
me.and.u.share.our.bitter.memory,,

we.love.momma.forever.
love u,,

 

Ngayogjokartohadiningrat, 12th March 2009

02.42 am

,,nEw tiMe of Land,, *just another pOem

I waLk aLone

in d daRkness of d Night

wind as d cOmpanion

together we dRied,,

stream in my miNd

bLowing dReams aWay

aLways a sTep intO d DarKness

aLL thingS’Re cOnfusing

sTiLL theRe aLone

I sTand Chagrin,,

a bLiss of a StaR

bLinkS bRightLy Through d SheaR

mOre thaN I can BeaR

instead a tRip to d fEar,,

and I’m neVer been hEre

where d Dust bLind d feaR

I feared d Land

where it’s caLLed a wOndeR,,

,,29 Januari 2009,,

HappY b’daY Jelii

Ruang Sidang II

UpGrading PDR 08-09

Lost in fEar and saDness

News frOm Palestine

i got it from a message in my facebook account,,

please read it with heart :

MAJED said :

 

 

 

Unfortunately the situation is very bad in Gaza city – the Israeli occupation is striking more and more organisations, more houses and the mosque, and my university was hit last night.

 

They focus on the civilians. It is easy for them.

 

Nothing is working in Gaza and we don’t do anything. We stay inside the house, my family and I. Every family in Gaza is doing the same.

 

We are used to hearing these airstrikes, everybody here is used to it and we don’t have any way to protect ourselves. We just stay inside the home, hearing the news, hearing where the Israeli [army] strikes, hearing the F16s and Apaches and waiting to see what will happen.

 

We were not prepared for the war. They attack civilians and children and don’t care if we are armed or not.

 

“The world looks at unarmed Palestinian people as though they are a nation with an army, as though we are equal to the Israelis … but this is not true”

 

Majed, Gaza City

 

Yesterday, my sister’s house was damaged in a strike on a target nearby. Every room was damaged except for the kitchen, where she and the children were. Allah kept them alive.

 

The world looks at unarmed Palestinian people as though they are a nation with an army, as though we are equal to the Israelis. They think we have real rockets that cause a lot of damage or have a big effect, but this is not true.

 

The reality is that we don’t have anything and they have struck everything in Gaza.

 

I have exams coming soon in my university and I want to study but I can’t in this situation. So they affect my future, the future of all students here.

 

Why does the Israeli army strike my university and mosques and houses? I don’t know the answer. You have to ask them.

 

The coming days will be very bad. There will be more and more deaths.”

 

 

and this is from d group named EGYPT!-Keep Gaza borders open also in Facebook,,

I just want to spread this informations so we can act together,,

 

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- Items Urgently Needed for Gaza – Medical Equipment – PLEASE Donate -

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Please donate and make a difference..a ground raid is now a threat and the people of Gaza need more prayers and help than ever before..Please do your bit.

The following items are urgently needed.

1 mobile X-ray machine
Maintenance of the existing 5 sterilization machines.
5 new central sterilization machines.
500 oxygen cylinders
ICU beds, Fully equipped
5 Anastasia machines
100 Syringe pump 
100 Infusion pump
5 Operations tables with their lights for opening new operation rooms
10 Blood Gas machine with its converter
30 normal beds
5 Intensive Care ambulances
Normal ambulances (where 40 % of existing are depreciated)
More generators for the hospitals (KVA 200, KVA100, KVA 50, KVA 600)
5 Washing machines for clothes and other drying machines for Gaza Strip ICUs

www.justgiving.com/gaza – make your contribution right now!

This links also includes pictures and news directly from the Islamic Relief Gaza office. So you can see that whatever money you send via this link is getting to Gaza and being used their effectively and well.

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Egypt IS REFUSING TO OPEN THE BORDER, only opening it at random times in the day for very small periods of time and for only specific people..after watching the innocent starve and die, live on grass, people with termnal illneses or whatever illneses die as there is no medication, new born babies die, and now these new HORRIFIC attacks on GAZA that are “only the begining” pleaseeeee pray for them and raise money pleasee i can’t belive this..

LATEST NEWS
http://maannews.net/en/index.php
http://www.theheadlines.org/
http://www.al-akhbar.com/ar/node/63124
http://palestinefreevoice.blogspot.com/
http://sabbah.biz/
http://palestineblogs.org/
http://www.flickr.com/groups/palestine/
http://www.presstv.ir/default.aspx
http://windowintopalestine.blogspot.com News, Resources & More
http://blogleak.blogspot.com Free Documentaries Online Just Click & Watch
http://palestinevideoblog.blogspot.com/ Videos, Podcast, News, Photos
http://stopthesiegeongaza.blogspot.com/ link says what it is about

 

 

RECENT NEWS: 

The mass murdering continues and many lives, like Fadel Shanaa, are being lost, homes destroyed, blockade continues where there is no food or medication..Gaza is in a bigger crisis than ever before.

So what you can do?

****+++++***DEMONSTRATE***+++++****

NATIONAL DEMONSTRATION: SATURDAY 3 JANUARY 
HANDS OFF GAZA: STOP THE BOMBING: FREE PALESTINE 
ASSEMBLE 2.0 PM PARLIAMENT SQUARE, W1. 
Nearest tube Westminster. Called by Palestine Solidarity 
Campaign, Stop the War Coalition, British Muslim Initiative 
and many other organisations.

PLEASE PUBLICISE AND ENCOURAGE PARTICIPATION AS WIDELY AS 
POSSIBLE.

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OTHER DEMONSTRATIONS IN LONDON:

FRIDAY 2 JANUARY 2 – 4 pm. Outside the Egyptian Embassy, . 
26 South Street, London, W1K 1DW. Call for Egypt to open 
the border immediately.

DEMONSTRATIONS ROUND THE COUNTRY

GLASGOW
Saturday 3 January 12 noon. Outside Lloyds TSB St Vincent 
Street then assemble for demo at Blytheswood Square 2pm

EDINBURGH
Saturday 3 January 12 noon. Foot of the Mound, Princes 
Street

BRISTOL
Centre, opposite the Hippodrome, Tuesday – Friday 5.00 - 
6.00 and Saturday 3.00 – 4.00.

CARDIFF
Tuesday 30 December 12 to 1pm. outside Cardiff Market/ St 
John’s Church, the Hayes
Wednesday 31 December New Year Vigil. Nye Bevan Statue, 
Queen Street

NOTTINGHAM
Tuesday 30 December 12 noon, Market Square

SOUTHAMPTON
Tuesday 30 December 12 to 2pm, West Quay Entrance, High 
Street

PORTSMOUTH
Saturday 3 January 11am, Guildhall Square
Organised by Portsmouth Network for a Just Settlement of the 
Arab-Israeli Conflict, and Portsmouth Stop the War Coalition

HULL
Saturday 3 January, 11am. Queen Victoria Square.

http://www.justgiving.com/raising-money-for-gaza

And the money will go directly to Islamic Relief [who are now on the grounds n Gaza and need to raise 3 million pounds to pay for medication etc.]

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3) Sign the following petition: http://www.petitiononline.com/gaza2812/petition.html

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4) Email/Telephone/Send Letters/Meet your local MP – The MPs have been elected to serve us and we should make sure that we contact them and pressurise them to do something against this Israeli brutality. Attached to this email is a template letter that you can use to send your letter to your local MP.

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5) Call the Foreign & Commonwealth Office – Express your concern with the Foreign & Commonwealth Office, please call 020 7008 1500

Do your bit..its the least.

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Israeli strikes continue on Gaza, 271 now dead and more than 900 injured
Date: 28 / 12 / 2008 Time: 09:38 
Gaza – Ma’an – Israeli airstrikes continued on Gaza throughout Saturday night and into Sunday morning, and the death toll of the attacks rose to 271, with 900 injured 120 seriously so.http://www.maannews.net/en/index.php 

Massive Israeli air raids on Gaza 
http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/world/middle_east/7800985.stm 

http://sabbah.biz/mt/archives/2008/12/28/photos-of-the-day/

Detailed List of Demos inc America:
http://www.palestinianmothers.com/forum/topics/breaking-news-israel-launches

225+ killed over 700 wounded, Israel prepares for further attacks
Saturday December 27, 2008 20:55
As instructed by its political leadership, the Israeli army continued its military offensive against the Gaza Strip and shelled further targets raising the number of deaths among the residents to 225, and at least 700 residents were wounded, dozens seriously. 
http://www.imemc.org/article/58173 

PLEASE JOIN IN SENDING LETTERS TO THE ISRAELI GOVERNMENT – By Elisa Davinca/thnx

Threats are increasing against the besieged people of Gaza.
Continue Reading & Hopefully start loading up your email address book with some Israeli, EU & UN official email addresses & start firing off some complaints. http://tinyurl.com/a78v8x 

Israel launches deadly Gaza attacks
• Death toll nears 200 after air raids aimed at Hamas bases
• Campaign will ‘expand as necessary’, says Israeli defence minister
· guardian.co.uk, Saturday 27 December 2008 15.54 GMT 
http://www.guardian.co.uk/world/2008/dec/27/israelandthepalestinians 

 

 

Zionist is the real terrorist!!

finding the meaning of 20

so much things happened lately

the best or even the worst one,,

many people had made my day

shared the laughters and even the pain,,

moments come and go

whether i let it go or it makes itself gone

i really don’t know,,

all of the misery

all of the happiness

just made mE tough and so,,

let me thank you

each and everyone of U

for all the lessons i’ve learned through U

and the memories we’ve made true,,

let this simple thanks brighten urday

like u’ve brightened my day

with u realize it or not

I Love All of U so!!

 

ThaNks for helping me finding the meAning of being 20

and making the new me,,

it’s Newtha!!

 

HappY Eid Mubarak everyone!!

after all

why do Love very hard to understood??

why people keep going to hide behind their feeling??

 

never mind what’s happening in d heaRt,,

thought there’s always a second chance,,

or even hOping to make tomorrow’s move,,

 

and finally regret the love that they didn’t aware before??

or even, the love that ignored just for the self-praise??

 

is it cost that much??

 

coz it does hurt in the end,,

pain that we never can ignore,,

 

life’s never be simple anymore,,

 

pathetic,,

mencoba memaknai Ramadhan,,

baru satu hari saja yang dilewati dari bulan suci penuh hikmah ini,, namun ta seperti mendapat segudang rahmat yang dijanjikan itu,, mungkin ini terkesan egois untuk di ceritakan atau bahkan untuk dituliskan, karena makna sesuatu, apalagi sebuah Rahmat yang besar seperti bertemu dengan bulan ramadhan ini pasti sangat subyektif sekali,, satu stimulus yang jelas-jelas sama saja bisa menjadi sangat berbeda di interpretasikan oleh dua orang yang bersahabat atau bahkan kembar sekalipun, jelaaass,, karena interpretasi berdasarkan ilmu yang ta pelajari sangat dipengaruhi oleh pengalaman dan kepribadian seseorang, dan setiap orang insya allah tak akan mungkin sama persis menghabiskan waktu kehidupannya (wallahu’alam),,

Ramadhan tahun ini bagi ta datang diwaktu yang sangat tepat, mungkin ini benar-benar yang dinamakan Rahmat dari ALLAH,, bcos, for me, this year, mY entire future life is saved bY this coming Ramadhan,,

kondisi emosi yang sangat labil dan keteguhan hati yang sedang goyah belakang ini seperti kembali pulih setelah merasakan kembali chemistry yang sangat lekat dengan hadirnya ramadhan ini,, meskipun merasakan rasa rindu pada kehangatan ramadhan ini ternyata juga cukup berat bagi pikiran ta yang sedang berkabut ini, tapi alhamdulillah cahaya itu sangat bermurah hati membagikan sedikit cercahnya pada ta di bulan suci ini, mungkin ALLAH yang Maha Bercahaya sedang mengingatkan ta bahwa meskipun ta sedikit menjauh dalam waktu belakangan ini, namun pintu kembali itu akan selalu terbuka lebar kalau ta benar bersungguh ingin menyulam kembali benang cinta pada-Nya,,

kebingungan yang belakangan ini selalu mengombang-ambingkan ta menjauh ke pusaran keputus asaan ternyata kalah juga dengan gelombang tauhid yang dibawa oleh arus kerinduan pada Sang Maha Pencipta Rindu,,

banyak hal yang membuat ta belajar, meski Ramadhan baru ta lewati satu hari saja,, banyak hal yang melatih ta dan membuat ta sadar, bahwa jejak kehidupan yang ta ukir tak akan pernah berubah, kecuali ta bersungguh taubat memohon ampun pada-Nya, menginsyafi semua yang telah dalam keadaan sadar ta lakukan demi kepentingan duniawi saja,,

berpuasa, meski baru satu hari saja di Ramadhan ini, membawa ta menyelami dunia kesabaran yang begitu luas, sehingga seperempat nya saja mungkin belum sanggup ta mengerti,, begitu banyak misteri dalam menjalankan sabar dan menahan diri dari sesuatu yang disebut hawa nafsu, namun ternyata disana lah letak kenikmatan ramadhan, dimana ta bisa mengurai satu demi satu misteri itu, bukan untuk menemukan akhirnya, namun hanya untuk sekedar mencoba hidup bersamanya,,

dalam satu hari ini, ta paham kenapa banyak orang lebih mengutamakan sebuah proses dari pada hasilnya,, ini dapat ta analogikan sepeti sebuah perjalanan,, ketika ta hanya melihat ke ujung perjalanan atau hanya terus memikirkan tambatan perjalanan tersebut, ternyata pada akhirnya hanya lelah yang akan menemani ta sepanjang perjalanan, namun jika ta menikmati pemandangan sekeliling selama perjalanan, ataupun ikut tertawa pada sebuah candaan seorang kawan, bahkan ikut menangis pun dalam kesedihan sang sahabat, maka perjalanan akan menjadi penuh canda, dan banyak pelajaran yang dapat ta tuai, bukan hanya sekedar kecepatan sampai ke tujuan namun kering dalam penjiwaan,,

…..hanya mencoba untuk memaknai Ramadhan yang penuh makna

an email frOm a Friend

couple weeks ago,, i gOt an email from one of mY Philippines friend, name Cecille Estoque, we met in the IYF 2008,,

the email made me to start looking something beyond the only eye-seeing, and I found that there always amazing things happen behind that,, and we can also realize that everything has a lesson to learn for us, a free one,,

enjoy it, here’s the email :

A mouse looked through the crack

 

in the wall to see the farmer

and his wife open a package.

 

What food might this contain?’

the mouse wondered – - -

he was devastated to discover

it was a mousetrap.

 

 

 

Retreating to the farmyard,

the mouse proclaimed the warning :

 

There is a mousetrap in the house!

There is a mousetrap in the house!’

 

 

 

 

The chicken clucked and scratched,

raised her head and said,

‘Mr.Mouse, I can tell this is a grave

concern to you, but it is of no consequence

to me. I cannot be bothered by it.’

 

 

The mouse turned to the pig and told him,

 

‘There is a mousetrap in the house!

There is a mousetrap in the house!’

 

 

The pig sympathized, but said,

‘I am so very sorry, Mr.Mouse,

but there is nothing I can do about it

but pray. Be assured you are in my prayers.’

 

 

 

 

The mouse turned to the cow and said,

 

‘There is a mousetrap in the house!

There is a mousetrap in the house!’

 

 

The cow said, ‘Wow, Mr. Mouse.

I’m sorry for you,

but it’s no skin off my nose.’

 

 

So, the mouse returned to the house,

head down and dejected,

to face the farmer’s mousetrap . . alone.

 

That very night a sound was heard

throughout the house — like the sound

of a mousetrap catching its prey.

 

 

The farmer’s wife rushed to see what was caught.

In the darkness, she did not see it was a venomous snake whose tail the trap had caught.

 

 

The snake bit the farmer’s wife.

 

 

 

The farmer rushed her to the hospital,

and she returned home with a fever.

 

 

Everyone knows you treat a fever

with fresh chicken soup, so the farmer

took his hatchet to the farmyard

for the soup’s main ingredient.

 

 

But his wife’s sickness continued,

so friends and neighbors came to sit

with her around the clock.

 

To feed them,

the farmer butchered the  pig.

 

 

 

 

 

 

The farmer’s wife did not get well;

she died.

 

 

 

 

 

So many people came for her funeral,

the farmer had the cow slaughtered to

provide enough meat for all of them.

 

The mouse looked upon it all from his

crack in the wall with great sadness.

 

 

So, the next time you hear someone is

facing a problem and think it doesn’t

concern you, remember —-

 

when one of us is threatened,

we are all at risk.

 

We are all involved in this

journey called life.

We must keep an eye out for

one another and make an extra effort

to encourage one another.

 

 

 

SEND THIS TO EVERYONE WHO

HAS EVER HELPED YOU OUT

AND LET THEM KNOW HOW

IMPORTANT THEY ARE.

 

 

 

 

REMEMBER. . . . . .

 

 

EACH OF US IS A VITAL THREAD IN ANOTHER PERSON’S TAPESTRY;

 

OUR LIVES ARE WOVEN TOGETHER

FOR A REASON.

 

 

 

 

One of the best things to hold onto

in this world is a FRIEND.

I name it FLAME

going through the darkness,,

finding something that really passioning,,

keep running and don’t turning back,,

running,,

running,,

faster,,

faster,,

until u find that u’ll never be there,,

unless U make a fire,,

flaming under ur desire,,

 

 

going through the blankness,,

with the eyes shut and the ears hear nothing,,

walking inside the path and beyond the line which is black,,

screaming,,

yelling,,

rolling like a monster,,

rubbing like a gangster,,

Never though that u’ll ever back there,,

unLess U wanna Make another fire,,

RUnning inside of your FLAMing desire,,